(how it started without knowing that it would end for another beginning)
"Hi...
I wrote this as last night there were so much that popped into my mind. But as usual, I need quite a number of time to put it in the right words. There are several things that I want you to know for now.
Let me open with a thank you. I simply thank you for being so interested, understanding, for turning down your ego and being patient, all the efforts, thoughtful and heartful gifts, and for opening yourself to me step by step.
It always emerged in my head, what I heard from one of the sermons that we listened to together... the part that sounded like "you'll know when the right person comes to you in the right moment, at that second, you'll just be thankful beyond measure." and for me, you are that person.
My psychiatrist prescribed me with 2 medicines, God prescribed me with some, one of it being you.
I may not know if you feel the same as I do, we unexpectedly just clicked didn't we? just like the zing thing in Hotel Transylvania? As though time reassured us that "yup, just do what you two are doing, you're on the right track and at the right place.".
And you sir, you are so perfectly you, I love it. Although there is still a long way to know each other, but so far I am very fond of you.
You, this strong, nurturing, and bright person, who at most times knows exactly what to say and how to act. You talk the talk, and walk the walk. So far, I feel safe and comfortable with you. You're so awesome.
I still see that like every human being on earth, you have flaws and unresolved matters of the heart, but the flaws that you have does not send me away. I actually feel happy because we have similar things to work on, not exactly the same, but similar. It's like we're on a team, to embrace the good and the bad of each of us, and everything in between.
Honestly, life caught me off guard by making our paths cross. I found you.
Let's just say I have not been the kindest to myself. I always think to myself that I don't deserve all the good things life could offer. But then you came voluntarily. Something that is beyond good.
Am I worth your time? Do I deserve this relationship? I honestly fear these questions. But a voice in my head says that this relationship that we are having is not some kind of performance that is assessed based on one's merit. We both just simply deserve what we are having here.
So, if you ask me whether I want to date you... yes, yes I do. I would love to.
Do I realize that we have to work on it to make it work? Yes, effort will be a part of this relationship.
Do I realize that we will definitely enjoy that process? Yes, every second of it.
I hope all of this makes sense. I don't know what will happen from here, but know that I do care for you and love you, does it make sense?
I want us to be partners, to be best friends, to be the two persons who can grow through life together, to maybe fight sometimes, to maybe flirt sometimes, to maybe make good and bad pun sometimes, to maybe collect infinity stones and all the treasures in the world sometimes, to fall into a pit sometimes, to climb the highest mountains sometimes,
to be alive together.
What do you think and feel about this, dear?"
I read this letter after a month we split ways, I am thankful. Because now I know what his answer to this letter really meant, and how this letter showed the love I had in myself.
This letter was a beginning to an end, and this end was a beginning to something so great.
There is no regret, this letter led me to where I am now. I could not be more grateful.
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